Turning the page to a New Chapter

Life always throws a curve ball at you just when you’re getting settled in. Standing at the home plate, you try to account for every possible pitch and, including this one, and you know you have less then a second to react. While you’re facing a stiff task, it feels like the ball comes at you so fast and there only so much you can do to avoid strike out. Its a matter of perspective really. I know I’m losing you but just hang in there… So what do you do when you’re out. You look at the things you did well. And then you look at the things you didn’t do well and try not to repeat them. And this is where I am.

So in essence, I’m at that cornerstone in my life. I’ve lost something quite precious. The loss came as a surprise, just like a curveball, when I least expected it, after such a “Mascarenhas” effort from my part. Its like each time I work hard at making something work, something is always taken away from me. I can only now reminisce and understand how I’ve grown as a person in the time. Things aren’t going to be the same.  If I’ve learned anything from any of this, its that the world isn’t at all logical. No matter how much you try to justify how a decision was reached, you simply cannot understand. Things have made me a bit harder, seasoned and rougher. I know where I’d erred and how hard I’d tried to undo those errors. Worked so hard to earn the respect. All only to be lost one day.

In some manner, I should really treat this loss as a blessing. Something I’d realized after losses — and trust me I know the feeling all too well — is that there is always tomorrow. The sun will shine again. So this too, like all gloomy things, will pass. And there is nothing more that I can do but learn from it and move on. I’ve built many relationships in the past few years, but in the process, I’m now forced me to look back and think. I can’t simply do this if its all going to be taken away someday. Lesson learned.

But its not always just about losses. When something gets taken away, you get something else in return. Some other door always opens up. You lose something, you gain something. Its all the more balanced. Sometimes, its just hard to see it, but if you observe the situation carefully, you know what is different. Maybe a new friend, maybe a new look at some old friends? And how some friendships get stronger than before. Heck, I never thought I’d come across someone named Mascarenhas ever in my life, let alone become good friends

So, I’m looking at tomorrow. I’m looking at that sunrise at the end of the dark night, saying to myself “Tomorrow, here I come.” Things are going to be difficult, even bigger obstacles await me. But something tells me that its going to be okay. Some twinkling always brightens up this gecko.

And with that, I turn the page to a new chapter… the one that takes me into tomorrow.

Downtown NY Skyline

How’s this for the first picture in my list of several more to come. Had an opportunity to step away from my desk for a bit of time and I made good use of the time and my mobile phone. Neat!

Somehow, even though I’ve been here for so long, there’s always something quite surprising about the city. I still haven’t quite figured out what it is about NY thats so enticing.

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Chirag Chhatriwala